BH'
To love like G-d
To serve like G-d.
And remain human.
Dear Rebbe,
My letter to G-d through mankind.
My husband fell in love this past weekend, granted
it's with my 5year-old twin nephew and their older 10 year-old brother.
We love each other deeply.
Now, my dear friend has moved.
Where does that leave me?
Alone and in between.
I certainly do not like the way she talks to me. She is tough. But that is what a real friend is.
It matters not that I have been devoted to her in her time of need. That's what a friend is.
Dear G-d,
Help and answer me on this today today.
Help me understand what is really going on with the peculiar behavior in families. Please see that our troubles reflect a disconnect somewhere.
Bills to pay, places to move, possessions to give away, supplies needed for other projects.
Where to live? Near whom?
My son could use the family in Pittsburgh nearby, my mom could use me in Dallas, my nephews in Sonoma would love us being closer.
What about me.
Why is my husband so randomly happy around me?
When he's near his friends, he can access happiness?
Oddly, I hope when he came to the same place he would choose differently.
Sara Yocheved Ringler said my husband could easily be a gilgul from a past life. What does that mean? Simply put a past life experience brought forward for me to heal and release. and I had to stay with him now to work through what our experience in a past life was.
He was a Jewish woman in the concentration camps. I was a German officer. Makes sense?
But G-d what exactly is my job here?
I have been praying over this for years. I am at my wits end, I do not know what to do, say, where to stay or be with be of these other concerns.
I realize I am asking a lot to write this. Yes , I am.
Now what? When ? Who? How? Why? Where?
I must have some message upon my heart to know that
G- d hears my concern.
Swift I must be.
I am Nanny, that is me.
He called me Nanny.
Please, help me. Quickly can it be?
Please!!!
With Eternal gratitude,
Brocha Bat Devorah Rita
June 8, 2015
Wednesday
