Try if you must.

If you try to please everyone.
You end up pleasing no one.

18 months

What does it take to reestablish balance?

What is the easiest, safest route?

How long will it take me to get there?

Bestowed

Grace, I seldom show it.

It is divinely granted is the best flavor of grace to have.

Grace like that is called 

"Bestowed"

Thank you

I want to always remember to say thank you.

Thank you G-d.

Change

Change is when the floor is pulled out from under you
and you smile and accept it as "life"

Motto

As long as it takes.
Whatever it takes.

Inside Me

Inside me is the me that wants, must get freed.

How did "i" become trapped.
Macro says it is arrogance.
Chassidus calls it yetzer hara.
My editor calls it low self esteem.

Consider low self esteem.
Basically it is regarding your "self" to be less than.

How did this happen, when intellectually I consider my self
to excel.....that is....until I get to where it really matters.

Consider this....say you are programmed with a certain way of thinking.
And say it it opposite to your essential self's true message.

That means everytime I go to the place of greatness where I strive to live.
There is a conflicting message programmed into my being that registers
     my actions as "danger" does not compute.

Everytime this happens, I get short circuited from greatness which I attempt to achieve.

What would you do?

The Dr. says it makes sense.
Great.
This kind of sense keeps me away from creating the cents that I work towards.