What more is expected of me ?

Scrutiny

Am One

Between

Within

I give and give and give each day.

Always someone is not pleased.

Or, threatened it seems.

Or, too competitive in the wrong way.

I do not understand.

I am human.

I reach my limit. When I do I am judged. Not for how much I have grown and stretched beyond myself to exceed my own expectations and limits.

But, rather by what I say or do or think in my moment of exasperation.

I try so very hard. 

What more is expected of me?

I cannot be bought.

I do not feel safe 

Or love.

Born into this, I try to uproot the dysfunction, but cannot escape for long.

Thoughts get uprooted, changed and progress is made.

Then, a single negative encounter set the glitches back like that.

It's often the mother lode.

No fault.

Just faulty programming.

My computer brain needs an upgrade.