The Choice

I find myself wondering about the choice I made 25 years ago.
That choice cost both of us.
It also blessed both our lives with love and meaning beyond ordinary human understanding.
Our choice taught me understanding.

When you loose you really win.
If we had gone our separate ways we would have remained immortal in each others eyes.


When you win you really loose.
By choosing to be together, we forfeit the
passion and longing created in ourt hearts that makes a great and powerful artist.

It's a powerful passion that turns an ordinary man into
extraordinary.
By claiming that love in the form of a structured relationship, I took the love for myself.
By walking away that love is free to become words on a page telling of life and love
in a story that lives forver.

What do I have that lives forever if I take that love, now diminished to the grave?
I must do justice to the powerful experience and share the epic legend to inspire the future generations.

Only then, will the the win be a true win and the loss be forgiven for eternity.

Four Types

"Have you ever thought what forgiveness means?
You, your own self, your own personality, needs forgiveness.

Your spirit is divine, but until you have overcome your personality, remains human and needs the forgiveness of your spirit. As you forgive, as your spirit forgives your personality, so also you will learn to forgive your brother man for all his seeming errors.

If you train yourself to think in terms of love and forgiveness every moment of your life, a most beautiful healing will take place in you."

From The Quiet Mind Sayings of White Eagle.

Whether Myers Briggs, dolphins or BANK, the 4 types represents the personality defined!

Electrons

Electrons are everywhere.
We can tap into them, invite them in through our skin.

But if someone has been ill for too long, compromised with immune disorders
and not able to create more that they use, then look to the scientists who came before.

They each discovered valuable information.
Some information so valuable that they were quieted.

They being names like Reicht, Tesla, Rapsamanecous, and other brilliant minds.
Or that Albert Einstein was not the most briliant mind around,
as he was marketed as. Would you believe that?

Like, it is believed Marilyn Monroe was silenced to protect JFK.
So I must sit back and wait and watch and know that few get to stand at the top of the mountain and look out and know.

I am blessed to be one of these few.

A New Year

A new year is an invitation from The Great Choreagrapher to begin a new and do things with correct intention.

What do you need to take that big first step forward so that you can reach the finish line with your dream?

If it is tangible, find it, get it, use it.

If it is more time, carve it out of your days.

If it is sacred time, seal it in your vision.

If it is family time, discuss it and find a way.

If it is financial, plan, save and sell to get it.

If it is community acceptance, ask the best and brightest for their advice and assistance. 

If it is being in better shape, just do it.

If it is a new project. Map it out.

Whatever you want or need now is the time to ask. G-d wants that we should ask. Shmuel's mother Chana taught us this when she went to pray and the High Priest, accused her of being intoxicated. 

She was intoxicated because her soul was pleading desperately for her son, Shmuel, whom she was bestowed in return for her prayer that day, to give birth to and take care of until he was weaned. Then she promised in return to bring him back to the High Temple to serve G-d.

She was willing to make that "deal" for the privilege of bringing his Neshama forward into the world.

How interesting that you are both Shmuel's. and I can say at one time or another I have pleaded with G-d to that same degree asking that G-d will bless you both.

And you both are blessed. I am too.

It is for this reason that I decided to write and suggest you both to consider a daily perspective to strive to live each moment as it comes.

And perhaps you already live like this.  In a life of simplicity and goodness we merit making the best of what life presents to us.

Sometimes we are presented and we miss it. Sometimes we are presented and we look and do not choose it for ourselves. Sometimes we are presented and we grab it. 

What are you going to do with a clean slate? Paint beautiful art? Write a mathematical equation? Leave it blank? 

Complain that it is blank?

This is what Rosh HaShanah is really all about.

The opportunity to wipe the slate clean, implement everything you want sifted with lessons learned in order that you will achieve the fulfillment of bringing your dreams to reality. 

Ok. Dreams come true.

May you be blessed, inscribed and sealed for the best year of your life.

Each of you.

Both of you.

Me too.

Starting now.

Rav & Me~Yin & Yang

Once I went to see the Rav.

I took a picture of the DNA Helix.

I took a image of the Sefirot.

I said to him, "Perhaps Jacobs ladder in the story was a metaphor for our
DNA Helix. And not only were the angels going up and down the ladder, but we can also traverse
our own DNA. How? Through Frequency, Vibration and Voltage.

The change allows us to navigate the ladder, as the angels showed us. So that we can come and go along the helix and "get-off" and explore the Sefirot.

He looked at me, half considering what he probably thought as nonsense, but he did not say that.
Instead he said, " This is just a finite spec within the entire realm of Torah."

"I love studying Halacha because it is everywhere," he added.

"True," I thought, but what some people need to access that specific finite possibility in order to gain beauty. It does not take away from the entire Torah, or halacha or Worlds within Worlds.

What it does is salve the soul, butter the neshama, fuel the fire of passion and our deepest belief which are our charcter attributes of being human.

Halacha is the Fence. Seferot is the canvas, paint and personality of that which learns Halacha.

In a sense the Rav and I are the Yin/Yang of Torah in human form.  He lives very wide. I live very narrow.

This conversation was at least 7 years before I am writing today.

Focus and Movement

What you can accomplish in a week in astounding.

Believe in the best of yourself

No one can tell you what you can't do, so don't let anyone burst your balloon.

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